I Have to Go Back

Yesterday the realization hit me. I fly away again. Come Sunday, I will return to a small town and college and begin this insanity all over again. And I feel so conflicted because I'm ready to go and yet I don't want to leave where I'm at. I think that's a good sign that I'm at the right place . . . in both places.

But here, home, I know isn't my place to stay for long periods. Over this break I've become so restless I can't accomplish anything. I can't focus my mind enough to write or start a project of importance. And it leaves me longing for the problems and work of school. Granted, a lot of the assignments there are not enjoyable. But I feel like I'm doing something to reach a goal. There's a path for my passion.

So today and tomorrow will consist of me trying to fit my things back into a checked suitcase, a carry on, and a back pack, doing laundry, running around for last minute stuff we put off, etc. And then Sunday is an all day fiasco of crowds and planes to get back to Asbury. I'm so excited though. I'm going to dump my bags in my room and run to other peoples' rooms to just give them hugs. Believe it or not, the independent little writer homeschool girl adores her friends and missed them more than anything these past three weeks.

Goodness, has it only been three weeks? It feels like forever.

So much has changed since orientation. So much in me has changed. I've become stronger, more confident, but also (I hope) wiser. And I've realized that I know nothing. Seriously. So I should stop pretending and just learn and try.

Yesterday I fulfilled my dream of owning a satchel (you know like Oxford professors must have?). I got it from JCP on sale! Also, we had to get hiking boots since (instead of a science lab) I am going on a week backpacking trip through Colorado mountains. Therefore, equipped with my satchel and hiking boots, I shall conquer this next semester. Exciting, right?

Classes I'm taking? Earth Science, New Testament, Photography, Western Classics, a screenwriting class, and then either Old Testament or Theory of Wellness. We shall see. And the teaching yoga.

There are some exciting possibilities for this semester. But mostly I just can't wait to see God showing up.

<3 Katie